I just had a short but surprisingly eye-opening talk with the GiGC a couple of hours ago. Interesting? Sort of..

It started with a guitar.. well, lainee was talking about her newly acquired guitar and her jaunts. She told me of her piano concerto listening and all that stuff which in turn inspired her to be a lot more creative. Hence the guitar we were talking about.

Of course, I am very very proud of lainee. I wish her well, and I hope someday, I would be able to hear her strum the guitar she bought. I wish she bought a purple guitar..somehow, I think purple suits her.

Anyway, I told lainee that I got a .com. Yes, all of you will hear about it when it goes live. For now, it is still hush hush… C’mon! I just got it approved yesterday! And I bought a new webhost just today. So there..

Okay, back to the story lainee asked me why the name of the supposed .com, and I told her that “Never Dainty” does not seem so okay with me, and “My Climbing Peso” sounds too.. blah. So I chose blahblah.com.. and I told her not to mind the name.. at least it is a tad bit unique, and I am not exactly bent on monetizing it anyway. At least my dream of owning a .com is going to be coming true. And she gave me an applause for achieving a dream. Yey to me!! It felt good to realize that I did accomplish a dream right? One crushed out of the bucket list!!

Another dream that came true just recently is finally getting my ATM back! After two long aching years, I finally managed to grab an opportunity to give me back my ATM card! Whew!! Every time I think of this, I can still feel my eyes tearing up! One step for lurchie, another step towards being debt-free! *I am hoping against hope this will move forward*

Here comes another dream come true – sort of. You remember those small aspirations of being a journalist/writer/whatever? Well, that sort-of has come into being as well. Although I am not getting published really.. Not published published, but I realized that at some point I would have to start acknowledging the fact that I am getting there. I know I should have told everybody about this, but I am telling people now that I have been writing freelance or not exactly freelance for a group called Writer’s Haven. The Editor-in-Chief Maree has been kind enough to hire me to be one of the writers, and so now I consider myself a juvenile writer! Well, in my recently updated book a writer – no matter how juvenile or freelance or whatever – is still a writer! There! So another dream come true. Yey me!

There are so many bits and pieces that have somewhat come true this year. Oh sure, they might not be exactly the same as my original dreams.. but who cares? I think at least I am getting the dream in essence! Perhaps I should have asked God and dreamt more in DETAIL.

Latez!!!

I would like to share this with all of you. If you cannot view it now, do try to listen to it or view it somewhere else where you actually can.

Enjoy your evening!

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Mercy Me - God With Us

Monday?! Make that Tuesday!! Blame it on the warped sense of time and the holiday on the ninth. hehehhe..

So I am so glad that I did not get yelled at by those who care.. I know! I know! You care!!

I am actually a bit happy today since around 2 people told me I slimmed down.. Hahahaha Char! I doubt that. But if I did so, then I think that is would be attributed to the sleep lacking nights, and the uber fatigue. And here I thought they were bad for me…! hehehe joke!! please don’t kill me!!

Okay, today, I did not get to do the exercise I thought I would do. Why? Because Frankie is sick and he has not had a decent night’s sleep since Sunday. AND he was up all night, so the minute I got some zzzs.. well, you can be sure I woke up just in the nick of time! At least these days there is one habit that was formed. Waking up early. Now I am rarely late to work!!

Globelines is still down down down down down… Hmm.. I actually had the guts to call customer service and almost yelled at the representative. I know that they are just doing their job, but could they please try to listen when you are trying to explain to them that you are already a master of their so-called “troubleshooting basics.” I know that is their SOP, but come on, I already tried to tell you I already did that, why couldnt you just listen? Shut up already!!

Anyway, I hope they get it fixed tomorrow as I can no longer stand this life of going online at a cafe, eating cookies and red tea - yes, its red tea already and not Cali (cookies instead of Tortilla chips! Are you happy?!). I need to eat well at night. And I dont really care if it makes me grow bigger. Hmph.

Hmm.. good improvement enough, if I may say so myself. Hehehe..

Things are going well on my side of the world. Apart from my vanishing eyesight, all is good in lalaland.

Laterz

Okay, so here is something I would greatly do backflips for… Tomorrow, hopefully by the time I reach home, I believe I will be seeing my new PC. Yey!! Okay, so its not a whole new PC, but the CPU is new, and the specs are to my taste. And that is the cause for my happy dreams these days - aside from the fact that so far so good is happening. And I am really, really, feeling great these days.

Okay, so I may lack sleep. AND maybe I just might fall down one of these days, but hey, I think I am getting the hang of it - not the lack of sleep though. But I am feeling good. What could be better? Although I seriously need to make some changes in my lifestyle.

This week, I am trying out something new. Add a little something to exhaustion, but I dont care really. And although I think I might have gained a little weight from all the sitting I have been doing, frankly, I dont care if I gain weight. What I do care about these days is the food that I eat. Did I tell you I am getting used to living with an everyday dose of Cali and Tostillas? Hrrmm.. DO NOT START YELLING EHN, ZR, MIC, AND EVERYBODY ELSE! I am fine. Okay, so there is something a bit alluring for the combination I am going for these days, and I know it is unhealthy!! If it helps, I am doing it behind Dhirrac’s back, so he doesnt know..or at least he just finds the wrappers. hehehehhe

So yeah, back to the resolution part. I am going to eat healthier again. And whether I like it or not, I have resolved to at least move my butt for around 30 minutes before heading to the office, which means I have to wake up earlier. Hmm.. that also means that I have to finish my other work earlier so I can catch up with my sleep. Right? Let us see if I can do this and I will update you on my ventures everyday. This I intend to keep - I dont care if you scold me! AT least you would be informed, right?

Okay.. I have to stop this now as I have to update two of my other blogs. If you are kind enough, please drop by Never Dainty and My Climbing Peso. Thank you friends. And I love you, all!!

P.S. I was thinking of moving my blog to My Climbing Peso so I can purchase my own domain name (a “.com”). Any thoughts on that?

So, I think I might have found the answer to the computer problem I have. With the ISP problem, not so much. But hey, if it works, then I guess I just have to stay. However, the computer problem is a must, and I am very grateful to my mother for the help.

I know I am not supposed to jinx whatever is coming my way, but I would just like to thank mother dear from here to kingdom come. I know it was a tough choice to make, and I will do my best not to disappoint you again. Hopefully.

So you can expect a dancing Lurchie pretty soon enough. You’ll know.. oh you will know for sure. Most likely there would be tons of posts an updates and so many changes. I am praying, praying, praying for it to be a reality. And if you know what’s good for you, you should, too!

Hey Hey!! This is a good day!

Oh, by the way, HAPPY NEW MONTH!!

Ciao!!

Last night I realized that aside from badly needing a stable Internet Service Provider, I think it is high time for a computer upgrade.

While most of the peers of my computer have gone overhauls and upgrades since their birth (some even got traded in or tossed somewhere), my trusty rusty computer has been with my since 2001 and has only received some upgrade last year. Talk about possible neglect, but money was tight those days and it never failed me then, so I thought it should not fail me today or perhaps last year. It still hasn’t - sort of.

Last year though, I had the RAM upgraded maxed out, and bought a new monitor, together with a new keyboard (which got broken after 2 months of us - I’ve got big hands..what can I say?), mouse, speakers, HDD, DVD RW, and DVD ROM (this I got for a very low price, and it came before the RW :D). After that, I thought it would suffice, and for some time, it felt so good to be with my good friend again.

Could you blame me? I live and breathe computers… and I spend my time mostly around them. And when it comes to this computer, can you say, I used to wake up at 7 a.m. and turn it on first before doing anything else? Then as soon as I come home from school, I turn it on again (yes, even when I come home from lunch), and almost every single day, I turn it on at around 5 or 6 p.m. and just disconnect or turn it off at 4 a.m.? DAILY. It was a habit of mine that at some point my non-computer friends ganged up and yelled the living daylights out of me as they could not get through to our house (Dial up connection) or I no longer had time for them. Anyway, see what I mean? I just can’t live without a computer.

Now, the time has come where I am seriously considering buying a new one. Although I really hate the thought of no longer using my old computer, my experiences with other faster computers makes me impatient with this one that sometimes I feel like strangling it (as if it had a neck, no?). But then again, blame it on me for not doing anything with it. But what could I do with it, really? I would have to spend much on having a total upgrade since this is one of the very first Pentium III PCs with a compact build. You’d no sooner change the processor and you’re bound to change the motherboard, then the casing, the video cards and all that jazz. I would much rather buy a new one and keep my loving old one the same.

*sigh* I type this entry at around 4 a.m. in the morning as I had to wake up early - again - to finish some tasks. If the computer is not slow enough (although I think it is quite okay on most occasions), the stupid, stupid, stupid Internet connection is waaaaaaaay slower!! No, I won’t start another discussion on how pathetically slow Glo*** is. And it is not just today or these days, but you pay a good buck or two for the service and what do you get? Internet connection that makes snail mail look fast. sheesh!

Anyway, I’ll be back later on. I still have to fix something with my Never Dainty website. It sure is acting up as well..

Ahh..the pains of technology!!

Things were going fine yesterday. I woke up at 2 a.m., got to work on time, went through most of the day through a caffeine induced haze with mind floating over to Timbuktu when a flurry of information comes my way: huge fire at Bagacay. I panicked. My grandmother was in Bagacay! I thought I should find a way to contact her ASAP. Then other information came.

The fire is not exactly in Bagacay, it’s actually in Angatan at some hot-shot shop owner’s warehouse. Angatan! But that’s where I live!! Oh, right, there’s a firewall..It’s all good, but I think I should contact Dhirrac. No answer. What the?! What is going on?! Other information coming through… Friend who lives at shop owner is safe and they are not included in fire, only the older houses that live at the back were included. Old houses? At the back?! We live at the back! Dhirrac’s not answering! Dhirrac’s cousin’s not answering! HELP!!

No choice: I’m going home.

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Yesterday, I felt as though I could not breathe. Of course I joked around, acting calm and collected. But inside, the caffeine was doing its work in making my mind conjure images and what ifs and, oh you know, all the other gory details. Sorry, but I just panicked. Wouldn’t you if you were in my position?

Anyway, turns out, the fire really did come very, very close to our place. If not for the thick firewall, they would have been kebabs. Dhirrac says the house got to be very hot, and the flames could be seen going past the very tall firewall. Next door neighbors could have been included because the firewall did not extend there, so if they caught the fire, we were still going to be toast. Good thing it didn’t, it was stopped just in the nick of time. Whew!

Now I really plan to buy Dhirrac a new cellphone. Having a hard time contacting him because his cellphone is whack would more or less give me a heart attack. I would rather settle for a temporary hole in the pocket than go through that again.

To be honest? Regarding Game 6 tomorrow between the San Antonio SPURS vs. the New Orleans Hornets, I am really, really, scared.

I am praying that the Spurs will win this so that there will be a Game 7. If not, well, my heart will only be something short of shattered. I wish from the bottom of my already have broken heart that they will win. I wish and pray that they will push towards the Conference Finals and then all the way into the real deal NBA Finals 2008.

Chances are, of course, quite slim. Although there is still some hope. But if you take into consideration that they have never won a Championship title in succession is quite a statistic. Should they win it this time, of course, it will make waves. So, I’m down on my knees, praying to dear God to please, please, please, let them win!

If only I could watch the games as well. It seems that in every Playoff that I cannot watch, they lose the Championship. I’ve been taking notice of it! Or perhaps that is just me. At any rate, I still do keep refreshing the page of NBA.com to see how the scores are going. But it is quite different when you actually see it for your own eyes, screaming your lungs out, kicking and shoving Dhirrac in sheer support of the Spurs. Yeah, I get that way when I watch basketball.

Oh, dear, they just need to win.. they just have to!

I was checking and deleting my old emails a while ago, and I opened a couple of emails from a few months back. One of which contained some news of how I was awarded some gold shares as a gift for being good. What good that did me.

Anyway, at the bottom of the email was a message for me to check out the prices of gold and the fluctuation of stocks (I was under tutelage to learn about stock holding you know), so I opened the website (it’s called Gold Money) and found it to be quite interesting.

I thought everything was simple when you buy silver or gold. But I guess not. It turns out, there is a lot that goes into the mind when you purchase precious metals. Now I wished I could have learned more from that supposed teacher. But then again, I could always browse through the website and learn from there. It shouldn’t be too hard. After all, I’ve always wanted to buy silver and gold. Turns out I did learn something from my few months of stock holding.

The website contains information on protecting your assets, secure transactions, and affordable stocks with quite generous requirements and storage is also low! Pretty great considering you’re going to buy silver and gold. I would be a nervous wreck thinking of the safety of those goods - if I bought some, that is.

Ah, but if only I could be savvy and rich enough to buy all the gold and buy silver enough last me and my babies lifetimes. Never too late.

I’ve had a lot of time to think about… about the way it used to be. So many things have changed and I thought it was fine with me. Somehow these damn thoughts filtered through the bliss I thought I was filled with. It poisoned my mind, and threatened my security.

I started from being that flat tire leaning on the wall staring at everybody while waiting for myself to bloat up. I did, anyway, in some other sense and so I started rolling. Being without force or direction, I went one way, and found myself headed back. Confused, directionless, clueless, moving in circles. And then it hit… I stopped and dropped flat on the hard asphalt road.

Somebody with soft hands helped me up and moved me onto the side of the road.. away from the maddening crowd. He dusted me off and told me to be patient. He said that I should not rush things as they will reveal themselves in due course… I nodded in belief, still shaken by the events that just transpired. Needless to say, I think I might have stocked those wise words at a shelf marked, “valuable treasures – do not open unless necessary.” Bad move. I agree.

I had been able to move since then, at a steady pace, if I may add. Up until a few months that is. That was when a respected mentor suddenly became a screaming baby-shaped root and scattered bits of shrapnel on my path. Since then, my tire has been blown – again – but good to say that I am having it fixed. Something tells me that somehow I was meant to hit one or two of those shrapnels… just probably a shove after the numerous pushes I have had to make me reflect on those words once received. And now, as I sit, once again by the side of the road, edging out for movement, I plaster those words inside my head. “in due time…” a shorter version of words that would more or less change one’s life.

The daredevil in me tried to speed things up… neglecting what’s most important – my family. For now, they are back in the forefront of everything. I just hope I do not lose my way again.

today ive made a decision. i am cautious as to how this would impact my life later one… but i dont care. somehow getting everything off my chest seems to make me feel lighter.

yes, tears have been shed… but the paranoia somewhat diminished. and for that, the tears were well spent.

now i keep thinking, “why did i do it? why did i open up? what could possibly happen??” yet somehow… it felt right. and now everything lies with Him. maybe this was how it was to be.

we had our differences… and so much more. but who would have thought that it would happen? i dread to think about everything else now.. and maybe she is right… maybe i should not care.. maybe i should live my life the best way i know how… and fear nothing as long as i have not stepped on anybody else’s feet. if i did not do anybody else any harm, them i could not care less…

funny how it seems, despite those years apart, there is still one a person can run to in the end - his or her MOTHER.

Just for the heck of it.. i saw read ehn’s blog..got jealous.. wakekeke and i did a REPOST!!

1. Where is your dad right now?
* now this is a tough one… i dont know really.. last time i heard, he was going off to San Francisco, CA. now, if he is there… i dunno still.

2. Last time you kissed someone?
* this morning.. before going to work.

3. Name 5 things you did today.
* (1) played with frankie and sophie; (2) gave frankie a bath; (3) had late breakfast; (4) went to work… still at work; (5) nursing my migraine

4. Last person you text messaged?
* ibby wibby… i asked her to erase my overtime log i filed yesterday because i filed for undertime a few hours later because i was suffering from an intense migraine, coupled with nausea

5. What kind of phone do you have?
* this is a humble Nokia 6620

6. Where does your bestfriend work?
* i do not have a bestfriend… i have close friends. and they work all over the world..! charing.

7. What are you listening to?
* the tapping of keyboards… plus the recurring song in my head whose title i do not know of…

8. What do you smell like?
* i smell like… fish crackers? wahahahaha.. nah.. i smell like BAND AID Isopropul Alcohol which i just put on. before this, i was wearing something from NEXT. i forgot what it was…

9. What color are your eyes?
* i think it’s brown… is it, mommy??

10. Have you ever done a Chinese fire drill?
* i may have… but then again, i do not know what it is.

11. What color is your bedroom floor?
* it is brown… the floor is made of wood.

12. Do you have a chair in your room? w/c room? bedroom?
* yes… we have a monobloc chair in our room where dhirrac sits as he swings frankie to sleep.

13. What are you doing tomorrow?
* i have a lot of things to do tomorrow.. i plan to go to the optometrist (my eyes are killing me).. among other things, i plan to go to work - again. on overtime!! if im not too lazy… *sigh*

14. Do you know someone named Betsy?
* yes. why? do you know her, too?

15. What color is your mom’s hair?
* it used to be dark black… now its somewhat brownish i think… with streaks of gray here and there.. hehehe

16. Do you have a dog?
* no.. i used to have two cute doggies named: Saddam and Abu. hehehe they were half spitz

17. Do you remember singing songs as a kid?
* yes.. and i still remember those songs… i sing them to my babies.

18. Are you married?
* AYE!

19. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
* i talked to rai2 in person last month before mommy took her back home..and i texted jo2 a few days ago.

20. Do you play an instrument?
* i used to play the piano.. but im not sure i know now.. nyahahaha

21. Do you like fire?
* ooooh yeah… fire and i are like coffee and cigarettes… we are the perfect match.

22. Are you allergic to anything?
* chlorinated water

23. Do you have a crush on anyone?
* hehe yes.. sort of.. wahahaha my husband knows.. LOL

24. Do you have a bestfriend?
* again with the bestfriend bit!! no… CLOSE FRIENDS ONLY.

25. Have you ever been to a spa?
* no, but i would like to try

26. Did you take science all 4 yrs. of High School?
* of course! i liked physics the best.

27. Do you like butterflies?
* i like LOOKING at butterflies..

28. Do you miss someone right now?
* i miss my babies, my husband, my friends, my siblings, my mom, my gwama, my cuzins.. etc. need i say more?

29. Do you think they miss u too?
* i dont know about them… but i sure wish they do.

30. Have you ever seen your school counselor?
* yes.. im a nutcase.. i love school counselors. wahahha

… and now for the best part.. i want EVERYBODY who reached THIS PART to REPOST!!!!!!!!

yesterday, dhirrac and i had frankie christened at the local church. the festivities were not that great.. actually, we just invited the sponsors for a small get together.

even though it was not as big as sophie’s it actually went well. we did not run out of food, drinks or whatsoever, despite the fact that there were other people who still showed up. hehehe the important thing is that frankie finally got christened. and i am very, very happy.

there was some mix up prior to the mass, but we got it sorted out before the mass started. we went to the wrong church… hehe good thing the first spied mom informed me that she asked around and was informed that there was no scheduled baptismal mass that day… so i got around to clearing things out and made it to the right church just in the nick of time.

i felt rather sad about some of the things that happened, but at the end of the day, i just had to smile… another obstacle crossed safely. *sigh*

welcome to the Christian world, baby!!

mwah!!

lalayb and i were happily going about our work when all of a sudden the building seems to sway left and right. The building starts to creak, the lights jiggle in their holdings, and i start to panic. wahhh..!

yeahp! bacong had one of its rare earthquake hits. as of approximately 8:17 this morning, we were hit with a level 5 magnitude earthquake.

i know, i know.. when earthquake strikes, you have to STOP, DROP, and ROLL. nyahahaha.. just kidding. i do know a thing or two about what to do during earthquake emergencies… sadly, you do become confused when the true blue disaster strikes, now do you? you remember a bit, but there are those things that just slip through. as a result, while the earth was shaking, we went down the emergency exit and quickly exited the building - WHILE THE EARTH WAS SHAKING!! hehe stupid? yeahp, we know..

and now, here we are, without the building being examined, we came back inside and proceeded with our work. heh! great!

actually, the earthquake was big… the span is quite far. i dont think there were any casualties though.. well, my main concern was for my family… they are okay though. THANK GOD!!

ive been a BAAAAAAAAAD ate… i forgot to greet my bidibidiibidy bwader a haffy verddeiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!

Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday,
Julius John Bastillada!!!!!!!!

.:Please try to be good… hehehe love you soooooo much!!:.

i just want to say…

*mwah*

July 8 2007

i never thought about it this way… i honestly do not regret the things that happened in my life.

the first spied mom spotted the mild one with the domster chatting while on our break. she commented that they looked like lovers eating cheeseburgers while on a date. the cheeseburger scene made me recall a scene years ago, when i did not as much as know the name “dhirrac”

first thing people notice about me today is that i have puffy eyes. the state my eyes are in is due to a) two days of a minimum of 2 hours of sleep, b) great waterworks last night, c) uber tiredness that has plagued me for weeks, and d) all of the above.

my eyes simply refuse to stay open. had i brought a few packets of coffee, this would not be a problem. but i did not bring any coffee.. and i have to contend with this state. no worries.. i’ll simply let my day drag me by…

all hail me! the queen of denial!!

“lurchie, if you dont come visit me often, do not be surprised if one day i will no longer know who you are..”and that was it.. i almost cried.